So Im on day four of not smoking.  Harder today, probably because I get to be home alone and I have lots of computer stuff to do.  Plus, being Saturday afternoon, there's nothing on TV.

You see, I smoked excusively at my computer.  Not in my car, not watching tv, not just sitting around.  I only smoked in my office while I was being creative.  Now, here I sit trying to be creative, and man oh man do I want a smoke.

I figure if I can  get through this, I can be ready for the next one.

Hubby says if I make it two weeks he will get me flowers.  Personally, I could use them right now, but I see his point.  Ive made it this far before and turned back.  So that feeds my stubbornness as well and makes it all good.

Having some "brain fog" as well--I understand that's part of the process of withdrawl.  Should be short lived because I never was a "heavy" smoker, and certainly in the most recent years have smoked less than half a pack a day.

Perhaps a nap.  I didnt get up until almost noon because I took some ativan before bed last night.  Wow did I get an amazing sleep!  Insomnia is another withdrawl symptom, and a menopause symptom. But then so is grouchyness--If I still have a family in a month we'll know they love me LOL

Money is really really tight right now too, which is stressful.  Im very spoiled.  Im used to going to get whatever we need right when we need it rather than budgeting for it.  But we've got big travel plans over the next year so we're trying to get our sh!t together.

SO that's where I am today.  Laundry and a powerpoint presentation are my goals, so I think I will take that nap.....